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I Know It Now

Topic starter : Sunday, January 24, 2010 (12:07 am)

I know it now that I might not be in an okay situation.

I’m just trying to be okay.

Last message I got yesterday confirmed my feeling.

It was like a confirmation of what I had been waiting for all these times.

A “final” end for the whatsoever feeling that’s still left.

Sometimes I wonder.

Why do I need to get this hurt first for me to stop?

Ohh, mann.. now I can finally feel the pain in my chest.

I need to let it go right away.

I don’t want to get drown in sorrow.

I have felt enough of this pain, thank you very much.

Let it go.. let it go..

Just let it go, Indah..

Release it free..

To the air.

No need to hold it any longer.

Pheww..

I really need to hold myself now.

Topic ended : January 24, 2010 (12:42 am)

-Indah-
the soul traveller

Enough Drama

Topic starter : Friday, December 11, 2009 (11:57 pm)

Finallyy.. after thinking about this for sometime, I made a decision to remove someone from my friendlist in FB.

I know this someone in real life.

I know this person as JD but in FB, this person prefer to be called as KN with a switch of hmm.. something that I’d better not mention here.

Oh well, it’s JD’s rights, let JD do whatever JD wants, right.

For months I have to watch JD/KN in action.. spreading charms over KN’s friends and even commit an online relationship with one of KN’s friend from another social network.

I have warned JD/KN.. it’s not a good thing to play with one’s heart for JD/KN knows for sure there’s no future for them, no future.. at all!

But well.. JD thinks this as a game, a fun game that makes JD continuing the journey on FB.

And after “breaking up”, KN continues the love journey and has successfully made one of KN’s friends falls into the “trap”.

I again warned JD/KN.. but as always.. JD just won’t listen.

So I make a timeline for myself.. about how long I can handle being caught up in this “drama”.

And I chose Saturday, November 21, 2009 as the “timeline”.. if after that day JD still continued talking about “something”.. I decided to remove JD.

And todayy..

KN came up with another “conversational” talks about KN’s ex.

That was the point where I finally said “enough” to myself.

Thank you very much!

I have enough drama in my life right now.

I don’t need to add another one, not to mention this “fake” drama, aarrgghh..

So there.. after leaving a final “question” for KN.. I removed KN from the list.

It’s up to JD/KN now.. whatever JD wants to doo.. just let JD be..

I don’t want to get involved anymore.

For I think JD has gone wayy too far in playing with one’s hearts!

And I finally realized now..

I never think “truth” as something’s important if it would only cause pain.

But this thing with JD/KN finally opened up my mind that “truth” does matter!

My status of the day related to this JD/KN’s thing :

I’ve just realized that the truth really matters.. whether it will change how you feel or not, is not the question.. but at least you know whether you’ve been deceived all these times or not.. it’s like two sides of a sword.. it can either make you bleed even more or you can use it to fight and move on from your sorrow.. *hmm*

In a wayy.. I feel kinda sorry for KN’s ex.

If only KN’s ex knows the truth..

Maybe it helps much to get over the “heartbreaks” for.. well.. what’s the point in crying over something that wasn’t even real!

That’s the true meaning of “truth” for me now.

I don’t mind getting hurt..

I don’t mind crying..

But at least I know for sure that the hurts that I feel are from something “real”, not just by a make up drama by someone who’s soo heartlessly playing with my heart!

Soo..

That’s it.

Enough seeing “drama” by JD/KN.

And ugghh.. felt kinda relief when I clicked the “x” button to remove KN :p

Okee dokee.. that’s all I want to share with you now.

See yaa..

Topic ended : December 12, 2009 (12:37 am)

-Indah-