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Hmm.. gua lagi kangen bangets ama lagu anak2 belakangan ini, kenapa yaa? :p

Selasa 6/7 (10:47 am)

I know it now that I might not be in an okay situation.

I’m just trying to be okay.

Last message I got yesterday confirmed my feeling.

It was like a confirmation of what I had been waiting for all these times.

A “final” end for the whatsoever feeling that’s still left.

Sometimes I wonder.

Why do I need to get this hurt first for me to stop?

Ohh, mann.. now I can finally feel the pain in my chest.

I need to let it go right away.

I don’t want to get drown in sorrow.

I have felt enough of this pain, thank you very much.

Let it go.. let it go..

Just let it go, Indah..

Release it free..

To the air.

No need to hold it any longer.

Pheww..

I really need to hold myself now.

Topic ended : January 24, 2010 (12:42 am)

-Indah-
the soul traveller

God never sleeps.. For He never sleeps.. He knows everything you’re going through right now.. He knows all your pains and tears.. For He never sleeps.. He knows everything.. everything.. just hang on a little bit longer until He turns all your pains and tears into something beautiful.. just hang on, please.. a little… bit longer.. until it’s all over.. for He never sleeps..

Dear God..

You know this more than I do.

You know how devastating it is much more than I can feel.

Dear God..

I know that You never put us into temptations more than we can handle.

But I know it, God, that we’re weak without You.

So please God..

Pleasee.. especially on this very moment..

Please be with him and hold him closer and tightly in Your arms.

Please, God..

Make him feel that he’s never really alone for You’ll always be by his side.

Please, oh dear God..

Please please.. keep him sane.. and keep his heart from breaking into millions of pieces..

Dear God..

Please lead him the way through the stormy days of his life.

Please remind him that whatever happen.. he will always have You.

Please, God.. please.. I beg You please, God..

Keep him safe.. keep him safe in Your loving arms.

I only have You, God, who can reach him anywhere he is now.

So, please, God.. hear my prayers.

I need You now more than ever.

Please don’t let anything bad happen to him.

Thank You, God..

Thank You for hearing my prayers.

I love You, God..

Topic ended : December 20, 2009 (6:53 pm)

-Indah-
the soul traveller

Finallyy.. after thinking about this for sometime, I made a decision to remove someone from my friendlist in FB.

I know this someone in real life.

I know this person as JD but in FB, this person prefer to be called as KN with a switch of hmm.. something that I’d better not mention here.

Oh well, it’s JD’s rights, let JD do whatever JD wants, right.

For months I have to watch JD/KN in action.. spreading charms over KN’s friends and even commit an online relationship with one of KN’s friend from another social network.

I have warned JD/KN.. it’s not a good thing to play with one’s heart for JD/KN knows for sure there’s no future for them, no future.. at all!

But well.. JD thinks this as a game, a fun game that makes JD continuing the journey on FB.

And after “breaking up”, KN continues the love journey and has successfully made one of KN’s friends falls into the “trap”.

I again warned JD/KN.. but as always.. JD just won’t listen.

So I make a timeline for myself.. about how long I can handle being caught up in this “drama”.

And I chose Saturday, November 21, 2009 as the “timeline”.. if after that day JD still continued talking about “something”.. I decided to remove JD.

And todayy..

KN came up with another “conversational” talks about KN’s ex.

That was the point where I finally said “enough” to myself.

Thank you very much!

I have enough drama in my life right now.

I don’t need to add another one, not to mention this “fake” drama, aarrgghh..

So there.. after leaving a final “question” for KN.. I removed KN from the list.

It’s up to JD/KN now.. whatever JD wants to doo.. just let JD be..

I don’t want to get involved anymore.

For I think JD has gone wayy too far in playing with one’s hearts!

And I finally realized now..

I never think “truth” as something’s important if it would only cause pain.

But this thing with JD/KN finally opened up my mind that “truth” does matter!

My status of the day related to this JD/KN’s thing :

I’ve just realized that the truth really matters.. whether it will change how you feel or not, is not the question.. but at least you know whether you’ve been deceived all these times or not.. it’s like two sides of a sword.. it can either make you bleed even more or you can use it to fight and move on from your sorrow.. *hmm*

In a wayy.. I feel kinda sorry for KN’s ex.

If only KN’s ex knows the truth..

Maybe it helps much to get over the “heartbreaks” for.. well.. what’s the point in crying over something that wasn’t even real!

That’s the true meaning of “truth” for me now.

I don’t mind getting hurt..

I don’t mind crying..

But at least I know for sure that the hurts that I feel are from something “real”, not just by a make up drama by someone who’s soo heartlessly playing with my heart!

Soo..

That’s it.

Enough seeing “drama” by JD/KN.

And ugghh.. felt kinda relief when I clicked the “x” button to remove KN :p

Okee dokee.. that’s all I want to share with you now.

See yaa..

Topic ended : December 12, 2009 (12:37 am)

-Indah-

Before this day comes to an end, I need to make a post of this day, huahahaha..

Cause today is officially one month since I lost my drawing mood :p

I know.. this isn’t a good thing to celebrate, ahahaha.. and I don’t celebrate it either but it’s more like a reminder that I do need to tame down my mood :p

Okayy.. I want to read my friend’s posts.. so I’ll get back to you laterr.. perhaps another day, hihihi..

Ciaoo..

Topic ended : December 11, 2009 (10:42 pm)

-Indah-

Gua pikir gua udah cukup “mengerti” cara kerjanya and “perangkap” macam apa yang dipasangnya.

Seharusnya emang gua bisa menghindari terjerembab ke dalam “permainan” emosi yang sungguh menguras energi ini.

Tapi ternyataa..

Gua belon cukup pintar untuk bisa menghindar supaya ngga terjatuh di lubang yang sama.. berkali2!

I know.. I knooooww..

Dia juga udah bilang supaya gua ngga usah terlalu menanggapi omongannyaa..

Tinggal manggut2 ajaa akan apapun yang diucapkan oleh “this person”.

Masalahnyaa.. gua khan ngga bisa se-cool orang yang ngasih saran itu ke guaa..

Gua mana tahaaaaann ngedenger orang lain dijelek2in githu di depan guaa..

Udah bawaan guaa.. buat “balancing”.

Gua mo diam ajaa.. gua makan hatii..

Gua tanggapinn.. ya makan hati jugaa..

Jadii.. gua musti gimana donks?!

And ini udah mulai memasuki tahap2 genting..

Karena udah mulai menggerogoti kesehatan fisik and mental gua.

I don’t know how much longer I can hold this one.

Tuhan, tolong..

Topic ended : December 10, 2009 (7:33 pm)

-Indah-